Frustration

Today I got my fifth (or sixth, I'm starting to lose count) consecutive "we're not hiring at this time" rejection letter.  Although everyone has been very nice and has assured me in no uncertain terms that my resume is, in fact, quite impressive, they still maintain that there is not a single place for me in their law firm.  Well, I believe it.  Who really wants an untested entity?  Personally, if I were a law firm, I would only hire old guys that I could trust and that had very impressive careers.  My mom keeps telling me that I have the benefit of being (relatively) cheap labor in comparison to the old guys with years and years of experience, but even being cheap hasn't seemed to make me more appealing to potential employers.

In the past year, I have seriously improved my resume.  I have brought my GPA waaaay up, I have gotten a couple pretty sweet awards, and I have considerably more experience with life and law.  I am, in fact, a quarter of a century old as of last week.  That has to count for something.  Right?  Well, apparently not.

Luckily for me, my cousin is very savvy at job-searching and she gave me a couple of recommendations that make me feel much, much better about life.  Of course, I still have to actually act on her suggestions, which is kind of hard considering all the other work I have left to do.  (Like the Crim Pro bench memo I have due next week, plus reading for classes, attending class, drafting contracts, and going to various law school lectures.)  But I will make it happen.  I will make it happen because I will write a list--and one of my biggest pet peeves is going to bed when there are still items remaining on my to-do list.  

I have two main steps to success that have made my life work.

Step 1: Write to-do list.
Step 2: Complete to-do list.

I can write my to-do list in class today, and then I'll get started on it after my 2-3:15 class.  That will make life a lot easier, and a lot less stressful.  If I'm stressed to the point of physical sickness, which, let's face it, happens all the time, the only thing that makes me feel better is to actually take action.  Whatever is bothering me will feel about a million times better if I take affirmative steps to correct the problem.  Is that neurotic?  Sometimes I think so.  Sometimes, I'll wake up at like 2 in the morning, freaking out about some assignment or other, I get up and spend several hours working on it before I can go back to sleep.  And job searching is much, much more stressful than any assignment I have ever had. 

It's so not fair that I have to search for a job during a recession.  So.  Not.  Fair.